When I run I heal

A drizzly day and I'm heading out the door for a run with my girls. This has become routine, running especially having two Great Danes. It was not always that way. Even though running started young for me, first with soccer in grade seven and then to the school track and field team. 

Today as I step out, I'm excited to see what bubbles up in me to become aware of and transform. Just recently my coach passed who had an impact on my whole life. For years I was haunted by my decision to stop training after high school that may have lead to a university scholarship. This was fuelled by a family at the time not supporting my running potential who saw it as threat against the family. how mich more scaricity mentality can younget? That moment, a part of me stopped dreaming and allowed my very drive of life to be extinguished. Literally a part of me died with me stopping my running dream which was really, be the best I can be at something. 

I carried this sorrow with me as a failure to launch event in my life. Which spread like a virus in anything else I tried to do. It even kept me from having a relationship with my Coach, Charlie Scarrow who was the only man who truely was in my corner that was unconditional. Little did I relealize throughout these years what running and training really gave me! 

Recently, running it came to me clearly that all my years of racing on the track that I had never gotten off the track. That my gruelling training with Charlie had engrained in me perseverance even when it was so painful you thought you would break, that being consistant does bring you results and the most important of all never give up, even when all odds are against you. Do not give up on yourself! 

I have never gotten off the track in fact I have been training for my whole life to keep making a better me! That running has become a metaphor of moving through the old perceptions and beliefs that allows me to choose differently. I believe that running has provided me a well of courage and has saved me from a life of despair and depression. Now looking back running has always provided me an outlet of my worst feelings and circumstances to know I somehow can change this into a life of joy, happiness and triumph! 

Now, I'm so grateful for being able to realize this and be this now. So I write this in hopes to inspire a thought in you to find what movement allows you to heal? That any form of exercise really does much more than tone the body, it is an outlet to express that which the mind has not been able to make sense of or have been able to access before. Just as founder of the daily love Mastin Kipp was asked by 20 Questions interview, How do you stay connected to your inner core of peace?

Exercise, eating an anti-inflammatory diet, Kundalini yoga and practicing gratitude for all of the small things in life. 

Get connected to you by having your daily practice that supports a life of love while having vehicles to acknowledge, feel and let go everything else that is causing you and others pain. 

Here are some places I go to listen, refresh, and reboot my soul;

www.thedailylove.com
www.mindbodygreen.com
www.postcardstotheuniverse.com

www.Chopracentermeditation.com

Always here for your highest potential,

Katrina

blueberry meditation

Blueberry fields are calling
Where time fades away and peace is lolling
Face to the sun, drinking in its warm embrace
Close my eyes, to feel the sweet wind brush my face

It's time to go, to that place, that falls between gaps
That takes you to a place, where your throughs collapse
Like the clouds floating away on their backs
It is timeless and ageless, in all forms with no masks

As I sit and pick, the blue gems roll off my hands
Like in the hourglass sands
I hear my own child like giggling
The only concern is the blueberries giggling

The sounds all around, creates a song
That forever more, my inner being longs
This place inside that eternal reins
Is just like my blueberry stains

Some would say, I'm just picking blueberries
I would say, there is much more that marries
For I know, I go to a place deep inside
That is just the beginning of this ride

There is no place I would rather be
Than the sweet still waters that make up me





This is my ode to my favourite berry that is true, it is also my way of being silly with my daily practice of meditation. This is a version of walking meditation; in the form of blueberry picking! I love it and reap great benefits for my body, mind and soul!

This ancient art, of getting to uncover oneself through meditation is considered by one of our most influential teachers of our time; Deepak Chopra to be;

"Meditation takes you beyond the mind's noisy chatter into the pure awarness that is the source of all your happiness, inspiration and love."     

Meditation has several health benefits that even the prestigious Mayo Clinic points out, like;gaining a new perspective on stressful situations

• building skills to manage your stress
• increasing self awareness
• focusing on the present
• reducing negative emotion

This western clinic has also states that it assists with many medical conditions to help relieve symptoms such as;

• Anxiety disorderAsthma
• Asthma
• Depression
• Heart disease
• High blood pressure
• Pain
• Sleep problems

Other fun and enticing facts, that might boost your inner desire, to sit with yourself and sometimes face being and even liking you. 

In just 80 minutes of meditation training can cut pain in half! 

By turning off that internal constant mind chatter of judgement actual improves your sex life! Sign me up! 

Can break the cycle of mind traps and stop repeating hurtful cycles. 

According to the Marines, only two hours a meditation a week gave them the edge on better moods and elevated memory to prepare them for deployment! 

Best yet, keeps you cool, calm and compassionate; it is working for the Dali Lama, it may work for you too!

Psychological Science in 2010, said that it assists staying focused by freeing the mind of distractions. 

Even if distracted are able to return to this zen state of focus even faster than people that do not meditate.

UCLA study showed that there is less age related brain shrinkage and better connection between brain regions with a  consistent meditation practice! 

What I can personally share with you after twenty years of a meditation practice, it has given me the ability to pause or take a breath  before responding. It has helped me stay as present and attentive to  each precious moment. At the beginning gave me the windows to see into me; even though it felt like I would burst if I had to sit another second! This was the start of me liking me, which now has grown into a full  love affair with myself! 

Whatever your reason, meditation is the access point to the stillness of all creation you hold inside of you! What if, you were the creator of all things from the inside out? What if you could simply be and by being more you could focus on nothing where everything comes from; effortless and easily as a tree grows or a river flows! 

To feel the benefits of meditation only a few minutes a day is required. Youtube is a great source of free guided meditations. Deepak Chopra is the king of mantras, and the latest queen of yoga and self proclaimed spirit junkie, check out Gabrielle's meditations! 


Be well, sit each day and reclaim the still point within! 

OM, Namaste! 







Forever here for you,
Katrina

The road to bliss is feeling the anger

We are taught every other emotion BUT anger and sometimes sadness is okay to have. Unexpressed or long term sadnes turns to anger. So, think of someone you know that is angry, says mean things or try's to control everything. They are truely full of sadness that did not get loved or heard and that got morphed into anger.

Now, turning this mirror to ourselves!

For everything is echoing our current state of mind and spirit. Trust me, those pockets of tension that just won't seem to let go with any yoga, massage or hot pack. Most likely, is the unexpressed anger we have tried to positive think it away.

That's okay, I am here to give you permission. Only if that is what you need to hear right now, to know anger is just another emotion like any other. This is about taking responsibility for everything about us including our angry. Explode internally before it either implodes you in the form of a heartache because anger creates an internal pressure. Or you turn it onto someone else.

Did you ever consider,  you got to get out what was already there, before you can get to feel love for you or the romance that we all fantasize about!

I thought, I dealt with my past of negative influences in my life; especially the ones that came in step father packages. Or the past relationships that left you hanging or you running out the door. You say to yourself; I'm over that.

Really! Did you fully get it out! What if not expressing this anger to its fullest, is what is cheating you out of the most relief and freeing experience of your life!

I don't mean screaming at the top of your lungs and accusing others. It is a down and dirty fist fighting, annililating in the most gruesome way visualizing the depth of your anger!

Visualize! Key word!

We have to get real and honest with us, to tap into this unleashed angry and give it a way to express itself! Nothing truer than the phrase, 'what you resist persists!' This a way to unlocking you, so you can feel who you naturally are; is love, peace and kindness. Your natural state is bliss. The road to bliss is feeling the anger!

You are so powerful that by keeping this power in, is like that of an atomic bomb! What is that doing to you?

Trust, take a moment, get in touch with your anger and unleash it! You will be amazed at the verousity and viciousness! That is okay, excellent, better out than in my mom always says! Be creative and let your mind go! Exhaust the angry and then you will feel the tsunami of peace come over you! This could be your biggest block that is stopping you from loving and fully embracing YOU!

Only you can stop yourself!

Be bold, be brave and release the suppressed so you can thrive!

All if our pieces are important, all our emotions are meant to be emotted! Energy in motion!

This taboo subject is now open for discussion! You are powerful, let you full power move through you, so get freeing yourself!



Supporting the miracle you are!
Katrina

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Expect the Unexpected! So miracles can show up!

Exposing it all and letting you know, I have daily insights, niggles, messages, ah ha's, ohh that is what is really going on; every single freakin day! Wow, in awe and amazement of the layers of wild programming we run internally on! 

Forget school to learn math, social studies, gym..we have got to fit in there life skills that matter! Like as a kid, to recognize, oh, heh that is just a program from mom or dad and I choose right now at nine to let that go and up load this... What a world, I see our kids could have ah ha moments early in life; so they can integrate now and learn words like, 'subconscious' and "just a program.' 

I can see it now,  play ground talk never be the same. For example, ' heh, that was not nice to say!' And the other kid goes, 'Your right, I was just scared that you were not going to like me. Better let that insecurity go! Time for confidence, I choose that NOW!' 

I am thankful everyday, that life hit me fair and square between the eyes four and half years ago; to say, 'we'll, honey you now have all the time for you to figure out how you made this mess!' This was not the first time, it was the hardest sucker punch from uni 

yet! If I was aware, I would have seen how I orchestrated the whole deal! How my son would be now living with his Dad, just like that overnight and be like that for the next four and half years! Lots to the story and more will come out as a writer, I write and have lots to share! 

My latest eureka moment of relief was yesterday when my sister said, 'Stop!' In that moment I got what she was spelling out, that my intensity was chaotic, frantic, needy and on the verge of screaming, 'You do not understand, I have to get this, so I can bring my life back together!' Ie stop struggling with my business plan so I can open my Women's Executive Coaching Practice and the rest of my life fall into place! 

Holy smolly, can you palate the pressure! I can and I let it go yesterday! She was right, intensity is not the same as powerful, calm, owning who you are! As a type A, Leo, double whammy, I identified with getting a lot of stuff done by my intense, go get'em attitude! Well, this method has not been working for me, especially when four and half years ago I started unraveling all that I was to truely who I am. 'Unlock your truth to rediscover the world for inner peace, love and transformation.' 

To all you beautiful, strong women, I urge you to sit quietly and go deep, deep within. Ask yourself, do I identify with intense or powerful? Then, if it is intense, choose to let that go in every part of your body ( the rest will follow). Then see yourself stepping into your power state ( for me was my power suit, not the office kind, more like wonder women!). Gently own you, and feel the natural state of calm that comes over you. Then I felt huge waves of love and acceptance for me. With this gift for yourself know that you can now drop expectations, all your visions, dreams, hopes, burdens and know to release them all! For in that moment of releasing you accept and allow life to show up for you! I

You ultimately are allowing this amazing place of divine creation to create through you and for you! This is where the miracles will show up! This is when life does not work out like you might have thought, stay thankful, flexible in kind and spirit so the miracle of life can give to you in soo many other ways! 

My miracle today, is having this time to connect to you and say, hello true you; allow and accept. What a gift to you! 

Chronicles of a dream weaver @katrinaevolve, fb